Long story
short, a lot of personal stuff has gone down; a combination family
related events and overworking myself by taking on too much writing/ blogging
wise, left me feeling overwhelmed. If you want more details, or to know how my
Christmas and New Year was, please feel free to hop on over to my personal
blog, The
Life and Loves of ClareDugmore.
I’ve done some soul searching
since then. But with some help and
guidance, I feel like things are back on track, and I’m positive 2013 is going
to be great.
Now that I’m feeling like myself again, I’ll be around a lot
more, and I’d like to take this chance to thank the people who nudged me while
I was away. Karen, Kim, Christine and Jaybird, your messages checking up on me,
reminding me you’re here and that you loved me, really helped me through some
tough times. Thank you. <3
Everyone else who frequently reads and comments on this
blog, thank you for your continued support too. I hope you’ll continue to join
me in 2013 as I carry on my writing journey. And look out for a special blogoversary
post on the 21st January.
I’m not one to set New Year’s resolutions – I find that kind of pressure
sometimes sets you up for failure, plus why should you only make positive
changes at the start of the year? Why not throughout the whole year? But I do
have some goals I hope to achieve in 2013.
I want to get a story completed in its fullest – i.e drafted, critiqued,
revised, edited etc. – and then get it out in the world, either as a self-published
novel or querying agents and small presses.
Some may think this might be easy for me, as last year I spoke about
making a lot of progress on both Sibylline Nights and Cupid. However, during my
time off, I’ve realised a lot about myself as a writer, and areas I need to
improve on.
I still love Sibylline Nights, and believe that one day it will be
published. BUT, the draft I wrote last year, isn’t what I’d originally envisioned
for the story – among other the focus and main antagonist were not as I
intended. Hubby and I spent a lot of time over Christmas discussing ideas, and
I have a whole new direction for the story and in the future I intend to do a complete
rewrite. However, I’ve also come to realise, that as of right now, I’m not
ready for a story so big, with three protagonists and a lot of world building
to do. I need to learn a lot more about pacing and structure, before I’m ready
to tackle Sibylline Nights again, and I want to give myself time to grow as a
writer so it can be the best freaking book I’m capable of.
Cupid … I don’t know how I feel about. I love the first half, that’s
been critiqued, but the second half that I began durning November NaNo felt
flat, and flakey and full of filler. Thinking of starting it up again makes me
feel sick. I don't know if I've run out of steam for it, or I've some how
connected it to the stress I was under before Christmas, or what but it makes
me anxious and blocks me. I think trying to complete the story for NaNo was
actually a big mistake, as there wasn’t really 50k of the story left to tell,
so I was forcing something that wasn't meant to come.
I’ve also come to think that NaNo is no longer a good thing for me. I
need to focus on quality rather than quantity. Instead of writing 8000 words a
day or whatever, if I can get 100 perfect words, that's better, so that what is
in my head I can put down on paper. I’ve noticed from critiques, and discussing
my work with my hubby that sometimes my descriptions are lacking, and I don’t
fully explain to the reader everything I’ve got inside. I don’t know if that’s because
I don’t plot strongly enough, or because I’m rushing to make a certain word
count goal a day, but something isn’t right.
I’ve also found myself running out of steam with stories, and finding
myself three-quarters of the way through, with no idea how to bring it to an
end, and instead filling it with pointless fluff.
To that ends, I’m taking some time to brush up on writing skills, and am
currently reading “Fiction Writing Fiction For Dummies” by Randy Ingermanson. I
then intend to start a new project – which is a combination of ideas I’ve had
swirling around in my head for a few months now – but to approach it more
slowly, and plot it out using one of the methods from Ingermanson’s book, so
that I have a clear end point and direction of where I’m going. Hopefully that
will help eliminate needless fluff, and enable me to keep on track.
We’ll see how it goes, and I’ll keep you updated.
Some other writing goals I’d like to achieve is writing every day, be
that blog posts, something towards a story, or just little practice exercises
to improve on my weak points. I’d also like to write some short stories, and
see about submitting them to anthologies. It’s something I wanted to do last
year, and never got around to, so hopefully I can improve on that this year.
I don’t think I’ll be taking part in either Camp NaNo or November NaNo
this year. While it is a shame, because I love the event, I think at this point
for me it’s more than a hindrance than a help. I gained a lot doing it the
first few times, and still think it’s a great experience, especially for people
wanting something to give them a boost into getting a long dreamed about novel
onto paper.
The A-Z challenge I’m still up in the air about. I greatly enjoyed last
year’s challenge, and think it’s a fab way of meeting new people. But as of
yet, I’ve got nothing in mind, and I also doing want to put too much pressure
on myself. I guess we’ll see closer to the time.
And that’s everything! Now that I’m feeling more like my old self again,
I hope to be around more often, and able to participate in tours and hops. If
anyone has got anything coming up, please point me in the direction of it. I
also hope the get around to all of your blogs, and catch up on the news I’ve
missed whilst I was away; I’ve seen a few announcements here and there, but
please let me know if anything major has happened in your life – I’d love to
hear all about it!
Happy 2013 everyone, I hope the coming year is an excellent
one for you.
Clare
