May IWSG: Is It Good Enough?
Happy May, everyone!
A new month means it's time for another Insecure Writer's Support Group post!
Purpose: To share and encourage. Writers can express doubts and concerns without fear of appearing foolish or weak. Those who have been through the fire can offer assistance and guidance. It’s a safe haven for insecure writers of all kinds!
Posting: The first Wednesday of every month is officially Insecure Writer’s Support Group day. Post your thoughts on your own blog. Talk about your doubts and the fears you have conquered. Discuss your struggles and triumphs. Offer a word of encouragement for others who are struggling. Visit others in the group and connect with your fellow writer - aim for a dozen new people each time.
Let’s rock the neurotic writing world!
Our Twitter hashtag is #IWSG
Thanks to Alex for organizing the IWSG, and May's awesome hosts - having done it last month, I know how tough hosting can be - you guys are all rock stars! <3
Back in March (OMG! Has it been that long?!) I finished the first draft of my new-adult, paranormal-romance, The Order of the Ancile: Book One.
Those of you who're already published might not find this a big deal. For me it's HUGE. It brings the total of novels I've completed a first draft of to TWO!
I have a handful of incomplete novels, most of which fell apart, and I lost interest in, when I got about ¾ of the way through, and started revising. Revisions are HARD for me. Once other people give me feedback, and I start seeing the flaws in my story, my willpower flees and I give in.
Sure, I can go back to these abandoned drafts in the future, and every draft is experience and growth. Now I'm at revisions stage again, I'm slightly alarmed by how well it's going.
In the past week, I've given my novel a read through, catching any obvious typos, and I'm amazed at how cohesive it is. Usually, by this point, I'm finding plot holes, and weak writing.
Not this time!
But now I'm wondering, have the years of practice paid off? Have my skills improved enough and my writing is stronger? Or am I actually blind to all the flaws, and kidding myself?
I'm scared once I hand this baby over to my CPs, they're going to read it and go "Erm, Clare, WTF are you thinking? This is crap!"
Okay, maybe not that harsh. My CPs are lovely, and I think my story is good. But is it good enough? I don't just mean good enough that my CPs, and close friends will like it. I mean good enough that publishers will be interested. Good enough that if it's released, I won't get a million horrible reviews.
I've spent almost a year and a half on this thing. What happens, after all this time, if I'm just not that good a writer? What happens if this love story I've invented, with twists and turns along the way, fails to elicit an emotional reaction in anyone who reads it? What happens if my characters aren't as likeable and relatable as I hoped? What happens if my villain is non-threatening, and no one can take the danger in the story seriously?
I know I'll never be able to please everyone, and I'll never know if my stories are any good if I don't share them, but right now, the idea of putting them out there for the world to see, scares the bejesus out of me, and I'm tempted just to leave my stories where they are – on my hard drive – for only me to see!
So, there you have it. What I'm feeling insecure about this month. Please feel free to share your own writing insecurity in the comments. A problem shared is a problem halved, as they say ...